IMy Discovery

I am in the process of discovering my true self. There is 2 parts of me fighting for control. My sub side likes to be put on the cross and other dungeon equipment. She does like to serve but it seems she wants to serve only certain people. She doesn’t want to give up complete control, she want to be with whom she wants and when ever she wants. She wants to stay in the shadows but she also wants attention. All she wants is to be completely lost on the cross.
My other side wants to be in complete control. She doesn’t want to be homeless again or in any position that will get her hurt again. She doesn’t want to be afraid anymore. She wants to be in the lead for a change. She wants to put people on the cross and do what her heart desires.
I don’t want to be confused anymore. I want to know who I am and where I belong. I am sick of always questioning who I am. I want to be confident, loving and trusting. Most of all I want to be totally happy.


Maybe there is a way for both sides to co-exist.

Written by:
sadisticlysweet

Leo

A Few Extra Pounds

5' 6 (1.68 m)

Green

Caucasian

Divorced

Yes - Not At Home

No

Eyes

Secret Piercings, Visible Tattoo

Light Brown

No

Some College

Full-time

Hospitality / Travel

dining services

$15,000USD To $29,999USD

With Roomate(s)

All Is Calm

Yes - Often

Yes - One Or Two

Outcast

Friendly, Flirtatious

Arts & Crafts, Reading, Music, Movies, Internet, Games, Family, Photography, Cooking, Gardening, Camping, Computers

Hanging Out With Friends, Trying New Things, The Movies, Relaxing, Reading A Book, Going To A Concert

He or she actually pays for the date or half of it and not me.

I will have to get back to ya on this one.

Friendly, Troublemaker, Raunchy, Goofy, A Flirt

Other

Never

I Don't Like Politics

Be Happy, be strong, and content with life!

Goofy

Movies, Sports, Re-runs

Science Fiction, Animation, Horror, Thriller, Adult

Country, Rock, Metal, Classical, Blues, Jazz

Horror

Hanging out with friends and laughing, or spanking a nice round butt!!!

Humor, Sensitivity, Oddities, Spontaneity, Flirtatiousness, Wit, Thoughtfullness

A nice butt, Searching

I am a Switch searching for a Switch. Someone that is a friend, a partner, a lover and someone that is has no qualms about sharing me. Someone I can be open with, without being worried I said something wrong. They must urge me to explore my fantasies and act on them. I would like that person to help me put into words what I want.

About me: When it comes to what I want or need I am really shy at voicing it. I tend to pay more attention to others needs instead of my own. I keep pretty much to myself and hide in my room way too much. I have a short attention span and get really impatient, and I would like to change. I can be a real brat sometimes, but not in a bad way. I am a touchy feely flirty kind of gal. I am a hard working self sufficient lady that doesn’t have to rely on others to pay my way. I drink tequila sunrises and kamikazes but very rarely. I get more enjoyment watching others drink and take care of them when they are drunk.

Bondage, Date