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**My situation has recently changed. I've met a Dom who I clicked with on a deep level almost instantly. He completely snuck up on me and has definitely rocked my world. ;) I wasn't expecting this to happen at all but it has and I can't....don't want... to fight it. So, for now, I'm open to talk, advice, friendship. Anything more is going to require me to get permission. I'm a very happy girl! **

I've known I was submissive long before I even knew what to call it. My first ever fantasy was rather...ummm....graphic, I guess you could say. Definitely not something your average 11-12 year old would come up with. I used to worry that something was really very wrong with me. Now I know it's okay...I'm just a natural sub. ;) Submissiveness has been in me from the start but I pushed it aside and pretended otherwise.

It's only fair to warn you that while I am very much submissive, I also can and do have a bit of an "attitude" at times. If I feel strongly about something, I will argue the point relentlessly. I don't necessarily expect you to agree with me, just hear what I have to say. Of course, I can turn it off pdq if I have to!

Also, I have an extremely sarcastic sense of humor and people sometimes aren't sure how to take me. If there is any doubt in anything I say, please please please assume I'm joking. You will be correct 99% of the time. Especially if something I say is followed by ;), :), LOL, or jk. Honestly, it takes a whole lot to offend me or make me mad. If you've done it, you will most definitely know it and no guessing will be necessary.

I am currently in a mostly vanilla marriage and have no desire to leave him. However, I've been monogamous with my husband since I was barely 18...married just after my 22nd birthday. As people tend to do, I've evolved and grown into my sexuality over the 20 years we've been together. I was content once but I'm not anymore.

I adore my husband. I love him deeply and have no desire to hurt him. He's been so good to me under circumstances that would have had most men kicking me hard and fast to the curb. I wouldn't have blamed him if he did but he didn't, he stuck it out. Unfortunately, he doesn't understand what he sees as "these new changes" in me. But the fact is that I haven't really changed. I'm just being more open and truthful about what I really want and who I really am.

I finally understand that society doesn't know what is best for me and I don't care so much anymore what other ppl think. As I get older, I'm less willing to pretend I'm happy with the way things are and to reject what I know is my true nature. Simply put, I need more.

I don't want to cheat on my husband and am hoping to work something out with him. Until or unless that happens, I've decided that I can't do anything in person. Regardless of how much I'd like to.

I'm looking for friends and online interaction...whatever that may be. I'm open to advice and want to learn about this thing that has been so much a part of me for so long. I don't know what will happen in the coming future, but for now, this will have to be enough.

Virgo

A Few Extra Pounds

5' 4 (1.63 m)

Brown

Caucasian

Married

Yes - At Home

Yes

Eyes

Pierced... But Only Ear(s)

Auburn / Red

Cat, Dog

No

College Degree

Homemaker

Other

The best job in the world....Mom! :)

With Roomate(s), With Kid(s), With Pet(s)

Friends Come Over Occasionally

Yes - Socially

Yes - Socially

Quiet One

Reserved, Shy, Observant, Friendly, Flirtatious, Outgoing

Reading, Tv, Internet, Family, Theater, Travel, Camping

Hanging Out With Friends, Staying At Home, The Movies, Relaxing, Sleeping, Clubbing / Bars, Reading A Book, Going To A Casino, Tv, Going To A Concert

Whatever you decide it will be but I would prefer somewhere quiet where we can talk and just get to know each other. I love both the ocean and the mountains so a picnic out somewhere really pretty would be great. I don't need anything fancy or expensive. That's not really me. I'm much more relaxed in a casual place.

Friendly, Troublemaker, Goofy, A Flirt

Spiritual But Not Religious

Once A Year

Middle Of The Road

To raise my son to be a happy, healthy, self-sufficient man. For me...I just want to be happy and content with my life. One thing I know all too well is that no one is guaranteed tomorrow. Make sure the people you care about know it...today. You might not get another chance.

Clever, Dry / Sarcastic, Friendly, Obscure, Raunchy

Documentaries, Dramas, Situation Comedies, Movies, Reality Shows, Re-runs

Action, Science Fiction, Comedy, Romance, Drama, Family, Horror, Adult

Country, Rock, Metal, New age

Fiction, Instructional, Reference

I love live music & concerts, driving fast with the music cranked, & roller coasters.

I also love walking around old buildings, cemeteries, or anywhere reported to be or that I feel may be haunted. ;) Yes, I'm a paranormal investigator and have been for over 20 years....long before it was "cool". Come go with me sometime?

This gives me the shivers...

Hearing this whispered in my ear..."I'm not a gentle lover. I'll take you fast. I'll take you hard, and I won't stop until I say it's done".

Yes sir.....

Intelligence, Good Looks, Humor, Great Skills, Empathy, Sensitivity, Boldness, Power, Flirtatiousness, Wit, Thoughtfullness

Confidence & strength will always draw me in. But there needs to be some kindness and concern in the mix as well. If you can make me feel a little scared but protected & safe all at the same time, that's a definite plus. I want someone to lead and teach me so it would be nice if you had at least some experience or the willingness to learn. The point is, I don't want to lead you.

I've already explained my current situation so I'm checking the boxes under "what kind of relationship are you seeking" based on my ideal or "wishes". ;)

Secretive Sex, Group Sex, Oral Sex, Domination, Bondage, Date